School.

It is kicking in got everything prepared for Harry's first day tomorrow. I know I will cry because I am a big baby. I really do hope he has a wonderful time just like I did at my old primary school. Exciting and nervous all at the same time !

And that is that.

I have had enough no more from this point I am an orphan. Dad has told me he no longer wants us in his life and that his love life is much more important than his own grandchildren. So today I have called it quits with everyone. He was never there when I was little so why should I do the same. Goodbye family and good riddance. Cannot wait to be in Perth with the most loving family.

My baby starts school

This Friday omg I think I will cry. Here I am thinking that his going to start later than the other kids but they too start on Friday how exciting! Tomorrow we get school uniforms and such oh fun times

I'm so excited.

That I am moving to Perth. I just miss Andre's family so much. I mean there is nothing holding me back here. Like in Perth I have my beautiful sister in law who is my best friend, she is truly like the sister I have never had. Andre's parents are like my own and my nieces are the same ages as my boys. Everyday I miss them, Melbourne is so lonely for me I literally don't have anyone and since I have stopped talking to dads family it even feels more lonely. I know I will be happier over there the boys will have family that love them. We can have family outings. Everyday Sandra always tells me they are off for dinner or going to the zoo etc. I want to make a new start not just for the boys but for me and Andre. I know Andre is not as keen to move but he knows it's the right thing. All that is holding me back is money. I need to sell my car ASAP and everything else so we can have the funds. I know it seems pointless enrolling Harry In school but I have no idea how long it will take for the big move. I'm setting myself a goal everything I get paid will go to moving. I just need to get out of Melbourne ASAP.

Primary school.

Exciting times ahead. We have enrolled Harry into Thornbury primary. I don't know who is more excited me or Harry. He should be starting school tomorrow but because we enrolled him late he will start a bit later than the other children. I can't wait till he gets his uniform and books and when he comes home with homework I can help him and teach him. I think the main reason I am excited is because I have always wanted to be a primary school teacher.

Australia Day

I don't celebrate Australia Day like I should but tonight is awesome! I finished work early because it was quiet now me and Andre are just kicking back ! I wish everyday was like this :) also got offered another job today back at the old pizza place I used to work (new owner now) I don't know if I will take it but maybe that means more money so I can have more fun nights like this. Dad also messaged to say he can babysit for a while tomorrow arvo so me and Andre can have a coffee or something in Fitzroy.. I'm excited and I'm also off my face ;)

Everytime.

So Tomorrow dad offered to take the boys to stay at his house for the night, so me and Andre could celebrate his birthday. Well as always dad has cancelled. He does this every single time and when he does take the boys he will call after an hour and say to collect them because his had enough. Seriously I told him 3 weeks ago that Andre's birthday is really important and we would just like to go out just once for dinner. Don't get me wrong i love my dad but when it comes to him seeing the boys he doesn't seem that interested. This is why I want to move to Perth to be with Andre's family. I love Andre's family, his sister is my sister. My In laws do everything for the boys and I think they need that stability. The boys always uses ask about my dad when he is coming over but not anymore they have given up, this breaks my heart as I don't have a mum, my dad is the only closet living relative they have here. So goodbye weekend hello staying at home again.

The silly faces of Tinka

Lazy day

God i feel like shit today, I just feel so tired. Last night's sleep was so disturbed between the boys and it just being to hot to sleep, i think i went to bed around 4am. So today we are having a lazy day. Last night after work i brought the boys some texta's so that they can draw. So guess what we are doing today we are drawing :)

Harry's drawing of woody ( from toy story)

So that is me done for now, since i am too tired to think. Going to have a beautiful lunch and catch up on some reading :)

Yallah

Got bitten by a pomerian today while on delivery didn't know whether to laugh or kick it in the face.
Meanwhile I found this on facebook and it is so my boss Lol

Tinka

I am finding myself so in love with my dog Tinka. I have had alot of dogs in the past, i haved loved them yes but they were not for me. They were all just too much always jumping here or there. Our last dog was storm she was a husky only 8 months old. We had to give her back to her original owner. As a big dog she was very hard to walk (i'm only small) She was too rough with the boys and i found she was always outside because she would just go crazy inside the house knocking everyone and everything over. I am glad she is back with her old owners they live on a huge farm and she just cuts sick there, i also get to see her thru facebook so that is nice. About 3 weeks ago i was scrolling thru gumtree as you do and i saw her. I had to convince Andre he kept saying no but he gave in and said we can look at her. The moment we met her me and Andre just fell in love. Andre couldn't say no. Tinka is chihuahua x fox terrier. She is 8 years old and is missing 4 front teeth. I don't know what it is about her but just looking at her makes me smile. She is so loyal and timid and she does love to play but its not overwhelming. Most of the time she is either sleeping, or with me or rolling on her back ( her way of telling you she wants belly rubs) Tinka means the world to me she is fabulous with the boys they love her. I love it when i come home from work and she gets so excited to see me and when she is excited she shows all her teeth like she is going to growl or attack you but that just her excited face. It is like she is my dog soulmate. I take her with me everywhere and when she is not with me i miss her so much. Now i know what people mean when they say their dog is their best friend. Because she is mine :)

Goodbye beautiful hair.

Last week i decided to take out my hair extentions, that was a pretty bold move for me but i had enough. Since i was 16 i have either bleached,dyed or had extentions in my hair. As you can imagine my hair was not healthy in anyway, and after having my sons my hair became really thin. Now i know this is bad of me, i know after 1 month you always have to have your weaves pulled up, i didn't. Just because everytime i go to book to get them pulled up my car would play up or kinder fees were due, this dragged on and i think i had my extentions in for about 6 months maybe more. They got really really matted. Last week i said Andre i have had enough could you take them out for me. This was a long process. Because it was so matted i told andre just to shave it off this is me with extentions.

This is the mattedness.

And this is the end result.

I have to say Andre did a wonderful job. Hopefully the shaved bit at the back will make my hair thicker and you can see how healthy it is already. Instead of taking 30 minutes to do my hair it takes 5 minutes, just add some product and bam it's done. I love it and no matter how much i will bitch and moan about it later on like i always do i will not dye, bleach or get extentions, i will just let it grow naturally. This is going to be such challenge for me as i like to change my style pretty much every month, i get bored easily.

Etsy

I have discovered etsy OMG ! What a delightful little website this is. I ordered this phone case and it is already on its way ;)

Oh nom nom nom

What more can I say?

A great night

After a really terrible day. I am now relaxed. The kids are asleep Andre has made chicken, avocado and mushroom pasta. Then it is Ben and Jerry's half baked ice cream and back to back episodes of the Simpsons :)

Work troubles.

I just don't know what do at work. I love working I get on well with my bosses and my friends that work there. Lately I am just feeling used. I got my friends job back (after he was fired twice) and now that his job back I have been pushed to the back. I was the one that was meant to be working full time now I am back to working Friday -Sundays.
I was promised a pay rise which hasn't happened. I give all my heart and soul to that place and I feel like I am just getting used. I cracked it the other day that I just left because I couldn't cope being there.
I feel so left out as it is mostly it is a men's place me and my other boss Nina are the only girls there.
Anywho back to the story. My bosses just called. There oldest son is in hospital. They want me to come to work collect food bring it back to hospital and then come back home. My partner is not happy as he thinks it is not my responsibility and not my job. He thinks it should be the other drivers to do it or I take over Nina's job while she goes to the hospital to give food to her son. I know it is hard to run a pizza shop and deal with family life at the same time but I feel like I am doing these errands more and more often like that's all I am good for. I don't know what to do. I planning to quit soon because I want to move to Perth to be with my in laws but at the same time this is the longest job I have had for years and it will be sad to go. Don't get me wrong i have fabulous boss's they are like family to me and they do help me alot it just feels like so one sided at times.

Hurt the ones you love.

Just when things are going good between my partner and myself, i had to go and stuff it up. I don't know why i do it i just do. I never was meant to lie but i did and i got caught out. I am in no way meant to be dodgy or hurt others but sometime my reaction to thing is to hide it and i did so i wouldn't upset him, but now i have upsetting him more. I need to stop thinking about myself and put my family first. I have got to learn to just be upfront. That is what i need to do. I am sorry i have hurt you.

So what i have been up to.

So i haven't been doing much these past few years couple of years. Last year i got a job as a pizza Delivery girl which has lead me to being a pizza manager for the shop. I love my Job, it gets me out of the house and i have met so many wonderful friends. Harry will be starting primary school next week, so that is exciting for me. We have a new family member Tinka who is a chihuahua x fox terrier. She is 8 years old and is everything to me. I haven't loved a dog like this since my dog gabby who was a pomerian when i was 7 years old. But really this is all that has happened to me, nothing very interesting at all just cleaning and being a mum, to which i still find it to be really hard lol. So this year i thought i would start new with my blog.

Wow 2 years since..

I have not return to this blog. So much has happened in those years. But that's a story for another day but I did get a dog called tinka she is my baby !