Just had to share how proud I am

My son drew his first picture at school I am so happy !! I can't wait till he brings home more. I am nervous tonight I am quitting work. Even tho I love it I don't get paid as much as I should and I feel like I'm working for nothing as all my money goes on petrol. God I nervous they r like my second family but I have to put my family first.

Being the best I can be.

I have realised that I have been quite slack when it comes to be a mother/ wife. Don't get me wrong the boys are well fed, dressed etc but I feel I can do more. Just sitting watching Harry eating his dinner and his making me so proud. I just want the very best for them both. I know Harry has only been once to school but now I feel I could get more of a routine happening.
I love those boys and Andre with all my heart. I will do everything in my power to make them the happiest they can be.
Andre has told me his applied for a high payer job to make our move to Perth happen make quicker ( where his friend works) he also told me today we have inherited his parents house. Won't happen now obviously in a few years but that makes me feel very settled, I love his parents house so so beautiful. Get me to Perth now I know once I am there I will feel more relaxed and not so grumpy and isolated.

Harry's first day

Lets just say we were off to a great start. Woke up nice and early made the boys breakfast and got Harry into his new uniform. We finally get to school get told to go at the room at the back. Harry was so excited playing with shells. Then it was time to say goodbye and I didn't cry. I don't think Harry realised we had to go. But as I said my final goodbye he brings on the waterworks ( as harsh as it sounds I should of gone) Then a nice teacher informs me his in the wrong classroom as that is Steiner room. So go to the next room and by that time Harry is crying so much he won't let go of my legs and so I was just stuck. His teacher was helpless at this stage they are not sure this is his room either. I had Andre cracking at me because he was late for work. I had Harry crying so much and the other parents just looking at me an Andre having a stressed out conversation. His teacher finally said will just take him and give him extra care. He really really cried he wouldn't let go of the doorways, I knew the teacher was just looking at him like a problem child and his not he just has separation issues at times. So I said goodbye and Harry cry's " mummy don't go" that is when I just broke down. I really hope he has settled down now and made some friends. I miss him so much but I am loving the freedom. Ben is in grumpy mood because he had to wake up early today. We're going to have to get used of this.

School.

It is kicking in got everything prepared for Harry's first day tomorrow. I know I will cry because I am a big baby. I really do hope he has a wonderful time just like I did at my old primary school. Exciting and nervous all at the same time !

And that is that.

I have had enough no more from this point I am an orphan. Dad has told me he no longer wants us in his life and that his love life is much more important than his own grandchildren. So today I have called it quits with everyone. He was never there when I was little so why should I do the same. Goodbye family and good riddance. Cannot wait to be in Perth with the most loving family.

My baby starts school

This Friday omg I think I will cry. Here I am thinking that his going to start later than the other kids but they too start on Friday how exciting! Tomorrow we get school uniforms and such oh fun times

I'm so excited.

That I am moving to Perth. I just miss Andre's family so much. I mean there is nothing holding me back here. Like in Perth I have my beautiful sister in law who is my best friend, she is truly like the sister I have never had. Andre's parents are like my own and my nieces are the same ages as my boys. Everyday I miss them, Melbourne is so lonely for me I literally don't have anyone and since I have stopped talking to dads family it even feels more lonely. I know I will be happier over there the boys will have family that love them. We can have family outings. Everyday Sandra always tells me they are off for dinner or going to the zoo etc. I want to make a new start not just for the boys but for me and Andre. I know Andre is not as keen to move but he knows it's the right thing. All that is holding me back is money. I need to sell my car ASAP and everything else so we can have the funds. I know it seems pointless enrolling Harry In school but I have no idea how long it will take for the big move. I'm setting myself a goal everything I get paid will go to moving. I just need to get out of Melbourne ASAP.

Primary school.

Exciting times ahead. We have enrolled Harry into Thornbury primary. I don't know who is more excited me or Harry. He should be starting school tomorrow but because we enrolled him late he will start a bit later than the other children. I can't wait till he gets his uniform and books and when he comes home with homework I can help him and teach him. I think the main reason I am excited is because I have always wanted to be a primary school teacher.